January 15, 2014
I can’t do this anymore… it’s over… I’m sorry. It’s not you, it’s me… You are so much fun and these last three weeks have been great but I have to be honest and let you know that as much as I’ve loved partying with ya and your cheeky spontaneous ways I am going back to Clean Living.
There! I said it! I know she’ll take me back. We have talked, in fact she never really left me completely and knew I’d be back as soon as I got you out of my system.
I know some of my friends will be upset that we are breaking up. They told me they think I’m so much more fun when I’m with you but this is not a healthy relationship and I want something that lasts long term and enriches me. I don’t care what those friends say. They can hang out with you all year that’s their choice. I’ve healed. I think I was already over you when we were still together. I’m sure I can be around you and not get jealous.
I know things between me and Clean Living will need to be different. I’ve changed. I don’t want to be as strict as I was in the relationship before. I want to be able to have a couple of cheeky glasses of red wine here and there and also enjoy a beer from time to time.
I’m totally happy to stay off the wheat and the refined sugar and do a once a week yoga class in order for us to be together (Festive Period, I know you’re gonna say that you and I had this together but it just feels different and better with Clean Living… it just is).
I do have some non-negotiable stuff that I need to talk to Clean Living about. I want to be able to bring more balance into the relationship and have a little bit of fun here and there like I did with you. But that’s between us, I shouldn’t really be talking about that with you.
I know this may hurt you and I’m sorry but if I’m honest I was thinking about Clean Living the whole time we were together. I always knew that you and I wouldn’t last because of this.
I know there has not been much time between the two relationships but I’m really confident that this no wheat, no refined sugar, once a week yoga class alongside the High Intensity Interval Training and lifting heavy shit is The One for me.
Clean Living gives me so much energy. The relationship makes me jump out of bed, smile and feel great on the inside and outside. I’m happier and more productive at work and at home. Festive period… I just didn’t get all of this from you and us.
I know that it might not last forever but it feels so right for me right now. Can you be happy for me? You know deep down that I’m not the right fit for you.
I’m sure our paths will cross again and I wish you no hard feelings. I know there are so many others that will want to be with you all year and not just for a couple of weeks in Dec/Jan.
No hard feelings hey? big love to you, ho ho ho x x x